Emma has been gone for a long time now.
Beside him, an electric photo frame shuffles images of his children and grandchildren and great-grandchildren,
All of whom keep him anchored here.
But he cannot eat, he says, as he holds a white plastic bag
With a blue plastic ring to hold it open for vomit.
We brought him a red egg, hard-boiled, in the Orthodox tradition.
He is glad to receive it with a sad smile,
But we both know he will not eat it.
Mother asks him if he would like communion, and he thinks;
Thinking is hard right now, and his eyes won’t focus
Though he tells us he can see through the doorway beyond
And make out the picture frame in the next room.
We turn to look but we don’t see it,
Unless he means the mirror, or the window, in the room across the hall
Or perhaps he sees something beyond our vision that we cannot yet see.
Richard is coming soon for lunch with his father,
Of course Rowan won’t eat, he tells us,
But he will be glad to see his son.
The phone rings. One of his daughters, calling to check in.
They all check in with me every day, he says,
With a laugh that makes him cough a little.
“They’re so good to me.”
He tells her he has guests, and that everything is fine.
The egg starts to roll off his lap, and he quickly catches it
With his knees, and it does not break.
Which reminds me that he learned to ski in his fifties
And only gave it up in his eighties when his balance started to go.
He hangs up the phone and Mother offers him communion once again.
He cannot focus his eyes, so we read the liturgy for him,
And then he takes the bread with fingers that have grown dark and thin and knurled like wild oak branches.
I am surprised by his speed and agility as he takes the bread.
And he chews it, and drinks the wine,
While his right hand clutches the white bag with the blue ring.
But he does not need to lift it to his lips.
The bread and the wine stay with him, and he laughs,
And stretches out a thin hand to each of us
And thanks us for coming to visit.
Would you like us to shut the door, Mother asks.
He is quick to reply:
No, please leave it open.
And he wishes us a happy Easter,
And we walk out through the lobby, where twenty gray heads in wheelchairs stare at the television screen, and wait.
